Count The Cost; Pay For Time

 Starting with the auto accident last July until right now, time has been comparable to another Lemony Snickets Series of Unfortunate Events.  As my digital clock on the computer turns to 12:01my thoughts started rolling the moments back and over.

 Even as I am typing the ebb and flow is reaching even further back through the past 6 years .I am seeing the faces, places, occassions, seasons almost as if chronicled in an album.  Individuals I thought would be with me in ventures for years to come, people I loved dearly pass or move on.  Some relationships healed and restored, others are muted as if they never really were. This time span has been an interuption of the ordinary. It has defied sequence, structure and whatI personally desire most for my scheduling pleasure - predictability.

Have you ever thought about it? Time is real and yet intagible. We ask ourselves and others "What do you do with your time?". What we do within it is tangible and it impacts the intangible depths of our lives. 

A curious, curious thing is this time.  What one does with it is of his own design.  But here in lies the ambiguous thought - if I own my time then what attention must I pay - The cost involved would be my own gain.

What have we gained from the moments we've paid? 
Who asked the price what was the exchange? 

Being an educator, trainer, manager and consultant I delve out much information free of charge.  None of which came with out a cost to me and at times even my family.  When I see others utilizing this to improve their lives and better yet see then freely handing it over to another for the same, I can't help but reflect on God's will.  I can hear Christ saying "look Dad, they do get it!"  Freely you received, freely give. 

While I do not necessarily "like" not being in control or accomplishing all the "to do" item on my list, I do like the feeling of allowing Him to move in and through each moment to accomplish what He deems momumental for Gods grand scheme of things.  And that alone is the only thing "worth" the price paid.

From the richness that He gave us, we too can extend unto them.

I pray that today and all the days forward we seek His wisdom, counsel and provision before we head out.  I thank God for his perfect will, His mercy and grace and unending love for us all.

In Christ,
Candace